Tuesday, February 4, 2014

40 Days Till 40 (Day 31)

THE KINDNESS OF STRANGERS


In A Streetcar Named Desire by Tennessee Williams, the female character, Blanche Dubois, says, “I have always depended on the kindness of strangers.”  Although, and let’s be honest here, Blanche could be classified as a “hot mess”, I think she’s got the right idea.

I was driving home this morning after dropping my daughter off at school.  Where she attends school is surrounded by newer homes and various hiking and biking trails.  Because it had snowed last night, the trails were covered with ice and snow.  As I was driving, I noticed a little girl trying to help an elderly woman who had slipped on the ice.  The girl couldn’t have been more than my daughter’s age, maybe around 9 or 10.  The women kept trying to stand, but the girl wasn’t strong enough to hold her. 

It would have been very easy to just ignore the woman and child and to drive past.  I, however, know first hand what it is to fall face first (both in snow and metaphorically) and to have someone help me back up.  I pulled over to the side of the road to help her. 

The little girl turned out to be the woman’s granddaughter.  She doesn’t normally stay with her grandmother, so this was certainly not something with which she would have to deal on a regular basis.  Her face was scrunched up with worry and she was near tears, but I could see she was fighting to keep it together.  When they realized I was there to help, her grandmother consoled the girl and sent her on to school. 

I helped the woman back to her house.  She didn’t live far, thank goodness, as she had banged up her leg pretty bad (and quite frankly, my own shoes, a ratty pair of Converse low tops, were a bit slippy.  I didn’t want to fall and pull her down again with me!).  When I left her at her house, she grasped my hand and said, “Well, that was your good deed for the day!”  I smiled and said, “No worries”—not telling her how many times a stranger had been kind to me in the past or that I hoped someone would do the same for me if I ever needed it.  Nor did I tell her how hard I have to work to be kind sometimes. 

That’s a funny concept, isn’t it, working to be kind?  It is true for me, though.  Oh, I am friendly enough and have no problem smiling at a stranger or being courteous to a waiter or retail worker.  I hold doors open for people and I thank those who have assisted me.  I compliment people when I like their shoes, clothes, accessories, hair, makeup or even their children.  I try not to cut people off in traffic or in store lines or to share my bad mood with the general public.   Yup, I am kind to strangers. 

It’s with the people I know that I sometimes feel I have to work that much harder.

Rather than intentionally hurting someone’s feelings, I typically choose to be diplomatic, yet direct.  Sometimes, though, it just isn’t in me, maybe because my kindness (or patience!) has been abused too much before.  Or I am tired of fighting the same battle over and over again.   I have a pretty bad temper, with the capability to blow up when warranted.  It generally takes a while for me to get to that point, but it’s always there. Waiting.  

Obviously, certain people (or types of people) may trigger my temper easier than others.  Passive aggressive, ignorant or verbally abusive a-holes, for example.  My daughter sometimes.  My ex-husband for sure.  The only power anyone ever has over us is the power we give to him or her, though, right?  That’s where working to be kind comes in.  NO, punching people in the head may not be the best form of communication…even if it feels necessary to get a point across.  

Awwww, look, I’m growing.  Yay me. 

Now if we could just get everyone to do the same, to show warmth and compassion to everyone—even the ones who could benefit from a good neck wringing.  What harm is there in a smile, a kind word or a helping hand?  Hmmmmm.  What an interesting world that might be. 

Until tomorrow, Lovelies….

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