40 Days Till 40 (Day 39)

HAVE A GRATEFUL DAY!

Holy balls, it is only 2 days until my birthday!  For some reason I am all weepy, but then I suppose that is not uncommon.  Birthdays, like the New Year, are a time for taking stock in one’s life and figuring out what to improve, what to eliminate and for what to be grateful. 

As I sit here in my darkened bedroom, typing on my laptop, Prince’s “Let’s Go Crazy” is playing on my iTunes.  Coincidentally, the lyrics I hear are  “So you take a look around…at least you got friends.” 

So apparently Prince knows what’s up.  I am definitely grateful for my friends, both because they are my friends, but also because they are so kickass that they inspire me every day.  There are thankfully many of you, but I'd like to give a special (vague yet sincere) shout out to four of you:  my Tom-Hiddleston-obsessed mama bear, my fiery, sassy, redheaded pragmatist, my uber-talented, auburn-haired sassafras (who also introduced me to "Asian Buns") and my favorite extroverted hermit…you’ve helped pull me out of some dark times lately.  Thank you. 

I am grateful for my pink hair.  That probably seems shallow, but my rosy locks make me feel better.  As my hair stylist and I agreed today, there may be sh*t going on in my life, but at least my hair looks happy.

I am grateful to know that I, like Gloria Gaynor, will survive.  I am strong, resourceful and capable…and I keep proving that to be true.  Thank you to everyone who keeps reminding me of that too.   

I am grateful for my ability to have food, shelter, employment and amenities.  I may have to live frugally, but I am not yet destitute—even if it feels that way sometimes.  

I am grateful for my daughter, who gives me a reason to keep fighting, even when I am over it all.  Plus she’s pretty damned funny. 

And finally, I am grateful to everyone who reads my blog.  I started writing this blog to make sense of my random thoughts, but I like knowing you’re there (especially when some of you quote my entries back to me!).  Whether or not you agree and/or commiserate with or are amused by my entries, I thank you for reading…and pity you for now knowing WAY too much about me.

Until tomorrow, Lovelies….