40 Days Till 40 (Day 26)

YOU COMPLETE ME

Here we are at Day 26 of my Countdown and I am finding it difficult to narrow down about which particular topic I should write.  There was so much good in the day!  Today was a day of possibility, friendship and appreciation.  This is a blessed position in which to be.

I spent time today with several different friends.  I felt invigorated by their warmth, humor, support and, quite frankly, their belief in me.

It’s funny, isn’t it?  We all know the value of self-love (a phrase which makes me giggle, mostly because it sounds masturbatory, even when it isn’t in reference to such things), yet for some reason it is so much easier to believe our worth when others appreciate it.  We need to know that we are not alone, that there are others who know what we are going through, wanting us to excel and succeed.  We all need cheerleaders (besides ourselves), no matter what the self-help books say.  No matter how strong I strive to be or what I am able to survive or accomplish, it is still nice to have validation from an outside source.  Someone (not just in my head) to say, yes, you are on the right track, good job.

And no, I don’t believe that makes me less of a person or implies I am weak.  Rather, this appreciation is a reward, a bonus prize if you will.  Congratulations!  You’ve won a brand new car!  And, man, I could really use a new car.

On a completely different subject (because, after all, a lot did happen today), there are two things I’ve always wanted to do:  own a retail store and/or run my own theater company.  Both of these may become a very tangible reality in the near future.   

Of course, I’ve also always wanted to be a librarian, but if these two things come into fruition, that one will have to wait.  Maybe when I turn 50…

In the meantime, we shall see where life takes me.  I may be wandering, but, hey, all who wander are not lost (Thanks, Tolkein).  Besides, who ever said my path was a straight line?  How can it be when I am striving to create my own future? 

Hold my hand.  We’ll make it to the future together.  One hopes.   

Until tomorrow, Lovelies…..